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Friday, November 30, 2007
Eh what the heck is this cutesy music XD

er. cute music.
and... am i like.. the only 1 left blogging?
i think so.

everyone's too busy studying. give it a break, brain won't rosak one ar?
i rosak so many times liao, have to go and fix.
mechanic very expensive one la, and all he does is give me chocolate.

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eh wth am i talking.

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yes.

i have no bloody idea.

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Thursday, November 29, 2007
Proposition rejected

Point 1 = I went to college.
Point 2 = Can't study at college.
Conclusion = Don't go to college.

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Tuesday, November 27, 2007
XD

wake up, check computer, noticed it's off. worried.

switch it back on, clicks on bitcomet, notices topgear is complete, happy!

Eats peanut better and bread for breakfast + milo, checks and reads newspaper, bored.

Decides to watch topgear, so clicks and sits stoned for 1 hour watching Clarkson, Hammond and May wreck havoc... on themselves. Amused. XD

Studies. Takes out F8. Mugs at risk for a while, cross references with P1's RMC section. Odd.

Sleeps. Relaxed zzzzz

Wakes up, looks around messy room, feels dizzy, so sleeps back, dazed but satisfied.

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Monday, November 26, 2007
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1 week left, people.

1 week to audit, 2 weeks to F7, P1, and P3.

It's very little time left.
Before you know it, it's already exam day.

Don't regret.
Luck isn't consistent. Neither is faith.
Some of you may even have told yourself you're not going to fail. Once, or ever again.

So,

Time to study.

Hard. Smart. Everything.

1 week is very little.
But in politics, 1 week is eternity.
in ACCA, 1 week can make between heaven, or hell.

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Sunday, November 25, 2007
Oh auditions and lulz

er... lol?
seriously, LOL?!

Anyway, these aren't useful to me, but who knows some of you may have showbiz dreams.

Upcoming auditions for those who are interested.

Project Superstar, 7th-9th December at Mines. Source Thread @ 8TV.com



SM entertainment global audition, 20th December at god knows where.
(not my intention to have TVXQ's face there, but that's the poster..)

Source thread ->
http://tristooges.com/forum/showthread.php?t=4252



I'm just damn amused, lol.
I'll post more if I can find any. XD

Seriously I'm liek, lulz!

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Saturday, November 24, 2007
Ace6

Class, got some homework to do later. XD life's good, except one thing...

Are you still alive?

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Friday, November 23, 2007
LOL?

First of the many P3 edcs to come.
Time to die.


Tired. Sleep. Bye.

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Hmm

Dad insists I study.
I'm not quite bothered when he does.

Me.

Woke up at 7. Went college expecting an empty b'ball court.
Saw kent, lj, wy, etc.

Went home.
Went ftz @ 1pm, after a round to look for parking.
UT2k4
Took a short break, @ burger king. B4 that saw 2 couples paktoh.
Saw minghan.

Play till 5++
Balik. Wet. Parked far away. Walk. Wet pants. Hates long pants.


Summary of UT2k4
I suck, sort of. Hate my seating places. Quite a few times my eyes just blurred because of the glare and dizzy.
Me vantz to own real bad.

Torlan - Fun. Although Tank > all
Artic - Frustrating. Loss the key position dunno how many times.
Dunno what -
Assault - FUN! Seriously, and there was a star wars-eque map.
Invasion - LOL. LOL. LOL. LOL. LOL.

Botz > me.

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Fark

Fuck Fark Yuck shit.

See this. LINK <- Lowyat thread.

Fucking people so fucking retarded and desperate meh, son of a bitch,

Shit.

Dumb TS.
Fucked-up Fatso.
Poor unfortunate chick.

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Monday, November 19, 2007
Hmm

Confidence level for respective papers as of the present moment.

F7 - 85% pass. (Cerberus)
F8 - 50% pass (Minotaur)
P1 - 30% pass (Hydra)
P3 - 40% pass (Medusa)

Once again the time has come, when the overlords of ACCA let loose the monsters of the abyss to wreck havoc on it's disciples, and it is us, to undertake Hercules's labors, to slay monster after monster for our freedom. And like Hercules, slaying such monsters takes cunning, effort, planning, knowledge and skill.

May the light shine upon you, and godspeed. (damn i sound corny)
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Anyway study study. Gotta start paying attention.
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Recently stumbled across a song I liked

阎韦伶 - Be with me.

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Sunday, November 18, 2007
9905-1244

Random title, nvr mind me.

Came home, slept, slept, slept.
Wake up, online, and probably going to sleep again, because still feel sleepy despite all the sleeping I've done, so yes, I will sleep later because I'm still feeling bloody sleepy and I realize I've just repeated myself because I am sleepy thus the brain is in sleeping mode.

Woke up at 6, that means i've clocked in about 2 hours nap.

Still insufficient though, I have a huge backlog of sleeping hours to settle.
Class resumes as normal tomorrow.

On with a regular random rant~

I'm sick of not having games to play when I need one.

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Saturday, November 17, 2007
XDXE

tired.

Dead tired.
very tired.
tired for no good reason.

Good night.

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Friday, November 16, 2007
ARGH?!

Dumb 2ndary student, nvr learn logical thinking ar?!

Chosen field liao, next step of course select college la, marde! think oso so hard, stuppppppid.

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Thursday, November 15, 2007
Damn MC3

Playing midnight club 3 dub edition on the ps2 as a time-passing game, very long and sometimes boring/frustrating, requires lot of grinding, just like an mmorpg. But by god it's all cars, so I'll just shut up and play (except the SUVs and bikes, which are just a tad too annoying).

My finger feels odd, but that's not really the thing.

Today... How was today, btw?

I went P1.
Slept.
Copied.
Bored.

Fucker Sean msg me.
'Want ponteng class?'

Went FTZ.asia, play UT2k4.
But b4 that while waiting i played sc.. owned 2 bots.. (technically 3 but 1's a sleeper)

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
sleep

exhausted.
wants to sleep.
slept in class for most of the time.

I hate audi 7 for how bloody uncomfortable it is despite the cushions.
copied despite having a reputation of not copying.

got screwed by parents over my results. they don't know actually how unhappy i am over it.

went and watch movie with joshua, joash, vernie, wynyan, sherhuey.
Funny movie, sort of.
Joash did something funny. Good job, and very crafty + quick witted of you ^^ I wish I had my reactions that fast. XD

Almost half broke. Today's 14th November and already I spent 250-300 for this month.

Keenly anticipates The Golden Compass and Enchanted to hit the silver screens.
Looks like good movies to watch.

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007
shaman

They say the best way to cure yourself of any disease is to smile, and very much I'm inclined to agree. I like people who smile, and people who's smile radiate warmth and genuine joy for no reason. It's as if the when they came to the world they knew eventually everything would be alright, despite how screwed everything is now.

And despite how gloomy a day is, I find myself helplessly smiling too when a pretty girl comes along and smiles at me. I mean, no point for me to not to return the favor, eh?

Hahaha shit, that sounds very biased of me, eh? But trust me, everyone's biased so I don't see why I can't be frank and admit it. I'll be a hypocrite if I say beauty doesn't matter when in fact I stare at pretty girls all the time. (pretty guys once in a while) ><

Now, onto the main thing I wanted to write about today.

Have others told you before, 'I understand how you feel'?
Most likely somewhere in your life someone said that before.

We are all individuals, all living separate lives, although at times our lives may be similar, and our thinking at times may be highly alike, and under certain circumstances both of you will act in similar ways.

However, as said, we are different for all that we are alike. No one can ever understand how you feel, the extent of the impact on your conscience, the pain you feel, where you feel it, how it manifests and affects you.

We, as a person, can never hope to grasp the extent of another person's pain, another person's joy, another person's loneliness, another person's misery. All we can do, is sympathize and hope somehow they find their way out of their own emotional labyrinth.

On the topic of labyrinths, I believe emotional problems is like being in a labyrinth. Speaking to your friends and family about the problem is like speaking to a ghost, it makes you feel better, it makes you feel more confident, but if you don't do anything, you're still stuck inside the maze.

As much as I'm inclined to force the solution I think it's logical onto a person, often in the areas of emotions, logical rules do not apply, and over time I think abstaining from advice is becoming the best way to assist them.

People generally need an outlet for their pent up emotions, and they want a place to express it. They frankly do not want advice, nor are they looking for it. People who need advice don't want it, and people who don't need advice want it for future use!

So my suggestion, again, it's a suggestion, you just keep those wise ideas to yourself and let them keep talking. Chances are after a while they'll know what's the right thing to do. After all, it's like a moral dilemma, we cannot decide what is right for them, in their eyes. Decisions made should reflect the personality of the person who made them, it is how as a person, they develop.

(i think i said this before a long time ago, i sometimes should consider writing a book)

Evolution at times, for us as persons, is making decisions, and like law, it becomes a base for future decisions. The past is where we look for guidance to face the present, and cumulatively these decisions become our future.

I'm writing jargon again.
When emotions run high, I'm inspired. Thank you for reading.

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Monday, November 12, 2007
X_X

Hmm.. this semester is unlike any semester I've even been in. The failure rate is so high... I've consistently failed my audit, with similarly terrible although slightly better performance in P1 and p3. It's really disheartening.

And yet, somehow deep inside, a part of me actually wants to fail.
Damn.

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Sunday, November 11, 2007
XD

stomach ache. XD

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Saturday, November 10, 2007
Sometimes

Sometimes it occurs to me that I have many reasons to be grateful for what I have, and the opportunities and chances within my reach. Yet sometimes it also bothers me that for all I know, I never really given them much of a damn.

Newsweek had an article on income disparity issue today, and I was left to wonder, is Malaysia like that? Is the middle income group slowly vanishing? Or what was traditionally the 'middle' income group slowly being relegated to the lower-middle income bracket?

There was a saying, that the skills needed by teenagers these days are getting more and more, and opportunities for us young adults to make it big vanishes by the second.

Globalization on the individual merely reduced our personal bargaining power, and yet prices keep increasing, messing with our already tight wallets further. This amounts to money being much harder to earn, and perhaps, getting more valuable in a sense, that we need/want money for more and more reasons.

The world is big, and talents are always in demand. The search for top quality men to lead, to inspire, to develop the world is constant, as nations, people has always looked for leaders, inspiration, and to those who fit the shoes, get rewarded well.

It begs the question, are we, the citizens, students of M'sia ready to face the cannibals of the truly unhindered global market, or we still need the local trade barriers to keep the bullies out? How many of us can leave our parental nests in this country and strive to build a foothold on foreign land?

Again... a certificate, a degree, is just that, paper. Knowledge, ability, and hard work has amounted to a success formula in the past, and most likely will do so in the near future. But as the population of humanity increases, the fight at the top will be even more intense, with far more stringent barriers to entry.

Being middle class is a curse. Social mobility is personified by the middle class, that when a crunch comes, the less prepared get screwed and relegated to the lower leagues.

Are we like that?

Whatever your parents tell you, take it. But keep in mind, back in their times degrees had real value. Now it's losing value, a depreciating asset.

To quote, Excellence is the new average score.
Soon, it will be Distinction.

We, the lazy bums will get knocked down a peg or two.

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Friday, November 09, 2007
A little chinese story

一只美麗的天鵝有一天落在地上時,看見了一只健壯的鴨子,她立刻被這只帥氣的鴨子所打動,
她驚詫於鴨子不同於她同類的模樣,不同於她同類氣質,是那麼的有型,那麼的另類。
於是,天鵝向鴨子表明了愛意。受寵若驚的鴨子立刻接受了這份愛。
從此,天鵝與鴨子在土地上生活著,在泥塘邊生活著。
天鵝那高貴而雪白的羽毛一天天被污臟了﹔天鵝那以前不會長期行走的美麗小腳紅腫了﹔天鵝失去了雲彩的撫摩,藍天的洗滌。
天鵝終於忍不住了,她總是在說:鴨子,鴨子,你學習飛翔啊,那我們就可以一起在高空中比翼雙飛了。
鴨子為了天鵝而努力學習飛翔,可惜他只是一只鴨子?
想要飛翔,想要飛到和天鵝飛翔一樣的高度實在是太難了,他實在是沒有毅力了,於是他放棄了。
鴨子說:天鵝,你抓住我,帶我去飛吧。
天鵝抓住鴨子,展動翅膀,非常非常吃力地飛上了藍天,在天上飛了一會兒落地了。
鴨子笑了,鴨子覺得天上風景太美了,鴨子想愛上了天鵝真是好。
在那之後的日子裡,鴨子每天都要求天鵝帶他飛上天,而且要求飛翔的時間也越來越長,如果天鵝不能達到要求他就會生氣。
疲憊的天鵝因為愛著鴨子,雖然身心俱疲,卻依然會答應鴨子的要求。
這一天,鴨子又讓天鵝帶他去飛上藍天,天鵝勉強抓住鴨子飛上了,飛得很高,很高,很高,
然後天鵝低下頭深 深地吻了鴨子,就在鴨子感覺詫異的時候,天鵝松開了抓住鴨子的手……

這個故事告訴我們:做人要懂得知足,美女願意讓你上就很好了,千萬不要要求太高,不要『天天想上』!
這個故事還告訴我們:公主愛上窮小子的故事並非沒有,只是結局未必會那麼完美。
無論如何,階級總是存在 的,門當戶對未必就是壞觀念。
攀上一個富家女確實會令你生活質量提高,但並不代表你可以免於奮鬥。
富家女會讓你飛得很高,但也會讓你死得很慘。

Saw this as a comment on nicolekiss's blog. (i loved her chinese article...)

Honestly speaking, I love to read chinese. I used to hate the subject, and as far as I remember, hated it till the very last day, on the exam day itself.

Afterwards, when reading became a pastime, not a chore, I grew to enjoy it.

Gone was the emphasis on grammar and understanding the story, and instead was a simple enjoyment of the flow of words, the rather relaxing way it sounded.

Anyway here's an excerpt, the 2nd half which I adored.


我不敢担保往后我能不能走出这阴影,无时无刻无论任何情况都喜欢的坏习惯,要改可是很难的。呵呵。

我不介意,你也不需要懂。我不 会在你的人生未来中走过一步,不会与你有擦肩路过的机会,不会与你再如以往谈天到天亮,不会在自以为是的依偎在你怀里;可 是,我会默默的,无声无息的,没有恶意的静静在别人的嘴中,网页上的讯息探探你的近况,听听你的消息,读一读你不知我知的部落格。这样我就很满意了,真 的。并没有什么企图,也不是跟踪。只是喜欢的境界已到了我掌控不了的地步。你开心,我会跟着你开心;你伤心,我会为你担心为你祝福。

所以,

能让我在今生继续爱着你吗?
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Thursday, November 08, 2007
She's freaky and she knows it.

gonna 6 soon, parents' are out.

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Tuesday, November 06, 2007
If...

If something is worth having, it's worth fighting for.
If someone is worth loving, it's worth trying.
If somewhere is worth going, it's worth the journey.

Sadly, being stupid, we don't really know what's worth having and what's not.

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Just to realize

Today was a little bit of a shock to me.

I just realized how much I actually needed to study for P3.

The sheer amount of technical articles to go through online were nothing short of a pain, and going through the pilot paper answer for the first time reminded me of the reality of the predicament I am facing. And the expected level of general knowledge of the operating environment in UK or generally, European Union meant that Far East students like us are in a severe disadvantage.

The amount of local knowledge we need to display to demonstrate our ability to integrate models, NOT just use them individually and separately as if they are not linked, when in reality, things get very muddy and confusing, to create a reasonably persuasive argument to impress whoever we are trying to persuade.

If that was truly what the exam was trying to do, I can tell you outright a massive percentage, some 85% of Malaysians, brought up with a non-integrated mindset that each variable is 1 to 1 relationship, will fail.

Thankfully, the exam is not so strict, realizing that a massive quantity of prospective students lack the intelligence, or at the very point of exam, the time to mold few different seemingly unrelated issues back to a single root cause.

Regardless, my eyes hurt.

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Monday, November 05, 2007
SCREW U TMNUT

Screw tmnut, screw u tmnut, i want dl and u fucking with my dl.

Dammit my topgear stuck at 50% at 5-15kbs...
Fuck if i keep seeding at 20kbps (constant), my share ratio will be like woot... so be kind to those who are kind to you, FUCKING SEED BACK!!! NIAMA...

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Sunday, November 04, 2007
A little boredom somewhere

Tomorrow's a free day, and it will continue so until 12th of November, and during this small gap of some 7 days, I'd like to mug a little, hopefully do some decent amount of work for F8 and P3, both of which happen to be my weakest paper.

Regardless, right here and now, at this very moment, there's a strange stirring inside, as if I'm lost and clueless, not knowing what to do. In my playlist is Chihiro Onitsuka, a rather emo song in a language I don't understand, but enjoying it regardless.

Admittedly here I am, struggling to find something to write here, squeezing my brains and running through every nook and corner for words to tell the world, just to realize I don't really have much to say about anything. Isn't it odd? Or is it just me, being the usual bored fucker I am, having nothing to say, or anything worth saying.

It becomes a problem, really, when one starts to feel nothing is ever worth saying, when it is the very act of saying something that is required. One becomes very reclusive, withdrawn, for his silence.

And so I remembered a phrase from a tale, that it is not the grand scale and brilliance of the world imagined by the writer, but it is the writer's ability to bring life to the most minute events, portraying it's significance to the reader, not to enhance the story or the plot, but to immerse the reader in it's world.

And so I set off today, to write on small, seemingly pointless events in my life.

It began quite easily, a simple request to borrow Sharee's phone for a game of TETRIS. Yes, you heard me, TETRIS, and for fark's sake regardless of what they call the game, TRIZ or TRIX, to me, it's TETRIS. It's old school, I know, but that's how I've called it all my young life and will continue to do so till the near future, unless I have a reason to change.

And a simple game like tetris is actually terribly complex, requiring some understanding of odds, the ability to visualize in real time 2d blocks, tactics and so much more. And by god it gets very frustrating, as if the odds are ALWAYS stacked against you. It's a game that requires tremendous amounts of provisions, allowing for the possibility of getting ANY type of blocks, so you won't have to end up having an empty space somewhere, screwing your chances up.

It's actually a very forward looking game, interesting how something like this can incorporate a great deal of logic and strategy.


Tomorrow, on FIRESTORM!

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Saturday, November 03, 2007
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What is that annoying buzzing sound!!!!!!!!!!! >< I'm inclined to curse, SHADDAP. (must be my monitor)

Anyone something odd happened today, an old schoolmate of mine who's 2 years my junior suddenly bugged me, about ACCA/CAT, informing me that he'll be taking this bloody course next year when he's done with SPM.

Oh damn! Another poor victim ensnared by the illusion of ACCA being a wonderful life. I'd just like to tell him how blur he'll feel when he stares at the study text.

But then again he's a top student, who knows, he'll love it?

But I can't shake the feeling that maybe this isn't quite the line for me. I mean, I really wonder why someone would want to torment themselves with ACCA, stuck in Malaysia working as a lifeless auditor for a few years?

Darn it I'd like to tell him to just shut up, ask ur daddy to send u to London to do some business admin degree, and top it off with a MBA, then come back then slowly think about the miserable stuff in life.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Got nice thing but choose suffering. Brilliant, weih.

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If

If you were asked to do clean the windows of a 10-stories building, and a mile high skyscraper, which would you choose? Strangely, if statistics were to be made, more would choose the 10 stories building over the skyscraper, DESPITE the higher one actually, technically speaking, be way safer than normal buildings.

After all, a 100m fall and a 1000m fall makes no difference. You're dead anyway, and the safety rules for the skyscraper tend to be far stricter, comparatively.

Odd, ain't it? More people has fallen off shopping complexes than towers.

Our human nature is such that we take far more precautions, when we are aware how close we are to the brink of certain death.

Seriously, 5 stories is still enough to kill you. >< And living a life with a disability, (assuming you survived), is still quite.. miserable.

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