I realized I haven't really wrote anything long in quite a while, and so I apologize to the very few people who still do drop by every now and then. (But actually, sorry lah~ It's hard to find the strength to type when all you do the whole day is typing stuff for work purposes, really goes to spoil your mood for any more typety-typety stuff) (p.s. no such word btw, I made it up because it sounded phonetically good)

Anyway, I'm actually half yawning here, pondering between whether to resign myself to my bed (and let the already rare free time of mine spent wandering in slumberland), or keep myself awake and play some games or do something more... productive. (not an appropriate word I know). I guess one of the things about starting to work so late day in day out, it works your mind alot. It trains it to be able to process longer, and think about more things about extended periods of time.

Let's sidetrack a bit (and avoid the topic of work, because it seems to be quite a sensitive topic lately), I'm actually thinking about my dreams and aspirations seriously lately.

I used to say I wanted to do things, you know... Things I find I enjoy, and in all honesty, I realize I actually enjoy thinking about things, and finding out how and why things happen. I enjoy that, and I realize solving a good riddle that has more than 1 plausible explanation or cause. Things that are not solved by 1 magical formula, but problems that have multiple methods and solutions. The dynamism and defensibility of one's solutions is entirely up to our justification, and hell, it's horribly fun.

I considered being a taxi driver (don't laugh), because I enjoy driving so much, but I know very well it's a career my parents will not accept, and on the further scrutiny of my mathematical mind, I realize there's not much money to be made (and living day to day will be akin to scrapping through life)

I asked whether I should be a lecturer, and I honestly considered it. I think maybe after 4-6 years I'll join a public uni and be financed by the government to conduct research, and at the same time write a few books. (And I'm still keeping this possibility wide open, I think it's a life that I would like to pursue)

Hahaha. Maybe I'll add more to this list of possible career switches in life.

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I saw a girl at 7-11 today, and dressed like the college student she is. I thought she looked pretty, and she gave a reactionary cursory glance when I walked in to grab my drink.

I gave the thought of approaching her a momentary consideration, yet I just took the drink to the counter, and paid. Maybe some other day, if I still recall how she looks like by then.

Heh, college students looks like they are dressed to club these days.